The Weird Arithmetic of Small Beginnings, Or Why One Sentence Actually Matters More Than We Think
I was standing in my kitchen last Tuesday morning, staring at a blank document on my laptop. The cursor blinked. My coffee grew cold. I had this essay I needed to write (had needed to write for three weeks), and I kept refreshing my email instead, checking if maybe some urgent crisis would materialize to justify my avoidance. None did. The document stayed blank. The cursor kept blinking. And I sat there calculating, in that special way we calculate these things, whether I had enough time to really start. Because starting felt big. Starting felt like I'd need at minimum two uninterrupted hours, ideal conditions, the right headspace.1
This is how paralysis works, turns out. Not with dramatic refusal, but with a quiet form of mathematics.
There's this thing called the Zeigarnik Effect, which basically says we remember unfinished tasks better than completed ones.2 A Soviet psychologist named Bluma Zeigarnik noticed it while watching waiters in a café (they remembered unpaid orders perfectly, then immediately forgot them once paid). The interesting part is not just that we remember the incomplete stuff. The interesting part is what happens when we start something, anything, even badly. When you write one sentence, even a terrible sentence, the Zeigarnik Effect kicks in. That one sentence creates what psychologists call task-specific tension. The task is now started, which means unfinished, which means your brain can't quite let it go. You've opened a loop, and loops want closing.3
So there I was, staring at the blank document, and I thought: okay, one sentence. Just one sentence. I wrote: "I don't know how to start this essay." Which is objectively a terrible opening sentence (I mean, hello meta, hello self-indulgent), but suddenly I had seventeen words on the page instead of zero. And something shifted. Not dramatically. Not in a way where inspirational music swelled. But shifted nonetheless. Because now I had something to work with. Something to revise. Something that existed outside my head.4
The problem with big goals (write a book, lose fifty pounds, learn Mandarin, build a business) is they feel disconnected from the person sitting here right now drinking lukewarm coffee. The distance between current reality and desired outcome seems impossibly vast. Which is why we focus on the wrong metric. We ask ourselves, "What is my current position?" and then measure the gap. The gap is discouraging. The gap is the size of Nebraska (I know you have no idea what the size of Nebraska is). But William James, that brilliant 19th-century psychologist and philosopher, understood something different about human change. He didn't care much about position. He cared about trajectory.5
Running one mile has more in common with running a marathon than sitting at home. Not because one mile is particularly close to 26.2 miles (it is not), but because running one mile means you are the kind of person who puts on shoes and runs. You're in motion. You're on a trajectory. Sitting at home, you're on a different trajectory. One leads somewhere; the other leads precisely nowhere, which is its own destination.6 This sounds obvious when stated baldly. But somehow we miss it. We dismiss the single mile because it feels insignificant compared to the marathon. We don't write one sentence because one sentence is not a book. We don't save $100 because $100 is not a million dollars.
But the arithmetic works differently than we think. Position is static. Trajectory is dynamic. Position is a snapshot. Trajectory is a vector, moving through time, pointing somewhere. And here's the uncomfortable part: doing nothing is also a trajectory. Doing nothing builds nothing, which means doing nothing is actively constructing a specific future. It's not neutral. It's directional. It points toward exactly where you are now, indefinitely.7
The other thing nobody tells you about starting is it involves risk. Actual risk, not theoretical risk. When you sit home thinking about running that marathon someday, you're not risking anything except vague disappointment in an imagined future self. But when you lace up your shoes and run that first mile, you're risking something real. You're risking looking foolish. You're risking being bad at it. You're risking confronting the fact your body is weaker, slower, more resistant than your mental image of yourself. This is why starting feels harder than continuing (and why continuing, once started, is often easier than starting).8
There's this concept in behavioral economics called loss aversion, which suggests people feel losses roughly twice as powerfully as equivalent gains. Psychologists Daniel Kahneman and Amos Tversky built an entire theory around it. The pain of losing $100 outweighs the pleasure of finding $100. Which means we orient our choices around avoiding loss rather than pursuing gain. And starting something, taking that first step, means accepting the possibility of losing. Losing time. Losing face. Losing the comfortable story we tell ourselves about what we could do if only we tried.9
But here's the paradox, and it's one I've been circling around for months now:
Your success depends on the risks you take, but your survival depends on the risks you avoid. 10
Which risks go in which category? There's no universal answer, which is precisely why it's hard. The risk of running one mile is minimal (sore muscles, mild embarrassment). The risk of running a marathon on zero training is significant (injury, burnout, setting yourself back months). The risk of writing one sentence is effectively zero. The risk of publicly declaring you're writing a novel when you've never written more than a grocery list is larger (because now you've created expectations, now you've got something to lose).
The trick, maybe, is to understand the difference between beginning and announcing. Beginning is private. Beginning is low-stakes. Beginning is writing one sentence that no one else has to see. Announcing is public. Announcing creates pressure. Announcing means you're trying to skip over the part where you're terrible at something and move directly to being good, or at least being seen as attempting to be good.11
And here's where the arithmetic gets interesting. Small starts compound. Not in the way interest compounds (steady, predictable, governed by fixed rates), but in a stranger, more organic way. One sentence leads to two. Two sentences suggest a paragraph. A paragraph implies structure. Structure demands development. Development requires revision. Revision generates ideas. Not linearly. Not cleanly. But it happens. Meanwhile, zero sentences leads to zero sentences leads to zero sentences. The trajectory holds steady.12
Eleanor Roosevelt wrote something in her book You Learn by Living about how you gain strength and confidence through every experience where you stop to look fear in the face. You're able to say to yourself, I've lived through this. I can take the next thing. The key word there is next. Not the twentieth thing, not the final thing. The next thing. The adjacent possible.13
Because the question is never really "Can I run a marathon?" The question is "Can I run today?" And today the answer might be "yes, one mile." Which means tomorrow the question can level up slightly. Maybe two miles. Maybe the same mile but faster. Maybe the same mile but with less internal complaining. The target keeps moving, but it moves in relation to where you actually are, not in relation to some fantasy version of yourself.14
There's this entrepreneur named Will Ahmed who said something that stuck with me: "Success is being excited to go to work and being excited to come home." Which sounds simple until you think about what it means. It means the shape of a good life is not achieving arrival, is not getting somewhere and stopping. It's movement between things you value. The going to and the coming from. The trajectory in both directions.15
Most of us think about success as destination. We imagine the moment when we can finally stop, when we've accomplished enough to rest. But that's not how it works in practice. In practice, the people who seem happiest are the ones who found sustainable velocity. They're moving toward something, then moving toward something else, then moving toward the first thing again. Work and home, effort and rest, challenge and recovery. Not balance in the static sense, but balance as a kind of ongoing negotiation between competing goods.16
And this brings me back to the blank document, the blinking cursor, the cold coffee. The thing I was avoiding starting because starting felt insufficient, because starting felt too far from finishing, because starting meant confronting the gap between my ambition and my ability. But I started anyway. One sentence. Which led to another. Which led, somehow, to this.17
Was that first sentence any good? No. Did it matter? Not really. What mattered was the trajectory it established. What mattered was the decision to be in motion rather than in stasis. What mattered was choosing a direction, however uncertain, however provisional.
Because here's the thing about hype versus quality, about aspiration versus execution, about talking versus doing: hype erodes and quality persists. Which means the work you actually do, even badly, even imperfectly, outlasts the stories you tell yourself about the work you might someday do. The sentence you write, however rough, is more real than the perfect essay that exists only in your imagination. The mile you run, however slow, changes you in ways the marathon you dream about cannot.18
And maybe this is what the worst-case scenario question is really asking. Let's say you start and fail. Let's say you write the essay and it's mediocre. Let's say you run the mile and you're still not a runner. What's the downside? Some wasted time, some bruised ego, some recalibration of expectations. Okay. But what's the upside, the part nobody mentions? You know something now you didn't know before. You've tested a hypothesis. You've gathered data. You're slightly different than you were. You're on a different trajectory, pointed at different possibilities.
Because the real question, when you get down to it, is not "What if I fail?" The real question is "What if I stay exactly where I am, indefinitely, because I'm unwilling to start poorly?" That question has an answer. The answer is: you will. You'll stay exactly where you are. And the gap between current reality and imagined possibility will continue to feel insurmountable, because it will be. Gaps don't close themselves. Trajectories don't change themselves. Only starting does that.
So maybe the weird arithmetic of small beginnings is this: one sentence is both insignificant and everything. It's insignificant in relation to the finished work you imagine. It's everything in relation to the trajectory it establishes. Which means the beginning matters more than we think, but differently than we think. It matters not because it's good (it probably isn't), but because it's begun. It matters not because it's finished (it isn't), but because it's started. And started things have momentum. They have trajectory. They have the Zeigarnik Effect working in their favor, that cognitive tension pulling you forward, making completion feel necessary rather than optional.
There's this gap between where we are and where we want to be. We spend so much time measuring that gap, feeling discouraged by that gap, waiting for the perfect moment to bridge that gap. But gaps don't get bridged through measurement or waiting. They get bridged through movement, one small piece at a time, often badly, usually imperfectly. The marathon starts with a single mile. The book starts with a single sentence. The fortune starts with a single dollar. Not because those individual units matter in themselves (they barely do), but because they establish direction, create momentum, shift trajectory.
The part nobody says out loud is that "someday" is not hope. It’s a kind of storage unit. We put our unrealized selves in there (our unwritten book, our unrun marathon, our unbuilt life) and we pay monthly rent in low-grade shame and low-grade longing and the feeling that our actual days are always preliminary drafts of something real that hasn’t begun yet.
Starting spends that stored-up potential. It turns the beautiful, indefinite idea of you into a specific, limited, embarrassingly mortal reality: words on a page, sweat on a shirt, a first attempt you can’t romanticize anymore. Which is why it feels like loss.
It’s also the only way anything ever becomes yours.
And there’s one more uncomfortable wrinkle here: understanding this can become its own form of stalling. The brain loves a clean conclusion. It will happily accept the feeling of closure (yes, that’s true, that’s exactly how it works) as a substitute for contact. You finish the essay, you feel the little click of completion, and you mistake that click for movement.
But nothing changes until you pay in something small and real. One sentence doesn’t make you a writer. It makes you someone who cannot honestly claim you “haven’t started.” And that’s a frighteningly irreversible kind of progress.
You know what you’re avoiding.
1. This is probably related to Parkinson's Law, which states that work expands to fill the time available for its completion. Meaning if I tell myself I need two hours, I'll need two hours. If I tell myself I need ten minutes, I might finish in nine. Or forty-five. The point is the time estimate is often a form of procrastination dressed up as planning. ↩︎
2. The Zeigarnik Effect has been contested in more recent research, with some studies failing to replicate it reliably. But the basic principle, that unfinished tasks create cognitive tension, seems robust enough even if the specific memory advantage is debatable. ↩︎
3. Which is why cliffhangers work in television, why we feel compelled to finish books even when we're not enjoying them, why open tabs on our browsers create this low-level anxiety. Loops want closing. Our brains are wired for completion. ↩︎
4. And yes, I did eventually delete that sentence and replace it with something less self-conscious, which is fine, because the function of that sentence was never to be good, it was to exist, to break the seal, to give me something to push against. ↩︎
5. James was dealing with his own struggles around paralysis, depression, and the will to act. He understood viscerally the problem of being stuck, of knowing what you should do but being unable to move toward it. His whole pragmatic philosophy grew out of those struggles. ↩︎
6. Though arguably, sitting at home is also going somewhere: deeper into whatever patterns created the sitting at home in the first place. Stasis is never truly static. It's just motion in a circle. ↩︎
7. This is harder to accept than it sounds. We like to think not deciding is different from deciding. But not deciding is a decision. Not starting is a choice. The choice just happens to be for continuation of the current state, which we experience as non-choice because it requires no action. But no action is an action. ↩︎
8. This is related to activation energy in chemistry. Getting the reaction started requires energy input. But once started, the reaction often sustains itself, even releases energy. Starting is the hard part. Continuing is often easier than we expect. ↩︎
9. Though recent research by David Gal and others has questioned the universality of loss aversion, suggesting it might be more context-dependent than Kahneman and Tversky initially proposed. But even if the effect is smaller than originally thought, the basic insight holds: we're more motivated by avoiding pain than pursuing pleasure, which is why not starting feels safer than starting badly. ↩︎
10. This is the central tension of growth. You have to take risks to improve, but reckless risk-taking is how you destroy yourself. The line between useful risk and destructive risk is fuzzy, context-dependent, and changes as you change. ↩︎
11. Social media has made this worse. Now we can announce intentions before we've done anything, which creates the illusion of progress without the actual work, and then the announcement itself becomes a form of identity we have to maintain or abandon, neither of which involves actual doing. ↩︎
12. Compound interest is predictable because it's governed by fixed mathematical principles. Human growth is not. Sometimes one sentence leads to three pages. Sometimes twenty sentences lead nowhere. The trajectory exists, but it's not linear. ↩︎
13. The "adjacent possible" is a concept from Stuart Kauffman's work on complexity theory, describing how biological and technological systems evolve by exploring possibilities adjacent to current configurations. Applied to personal growth: you can't jump to the final version of yourself, you can only move to versions adjacent to where you are now. ↩︎
14. This is where most goal-setting advice fails. It encourages you to imagine the endpoint in vivid detail, which is motivating for about forty-five seconds and then becomes paralyzing because the gap between here and there is so vast. Better to ask: what's the next smallest thing? And then do that thing. ↩︎
15. Ahmed founded WHOOP, a fitness tracking company, which makes the work/home balance comment slightly ironic given that fitness tracking can become its own form of obsession. But the insight stands independent of that context. ↩︎
16. This is why the old work/life balance metaphor is misleading. Balance suggests stasis, equal weight on both sides. But life is not static. It's dynamic. Some weeks tilt toward work. Some weeks tilt toward rest. The balance is achieved across time, not within any single moment. ↩︎
17. Though I should note that the essay you're reading now is not the essay I started. It's the third draft. The first draft was terrible. The second draft was better but still not quite right. This is the thing about starting: it leads to continuing, which leads to revising, which is really where the actual work happens. Starting is necessary but not sufficient. ↩︎
18. This is probably related to the difference between declarative and procedural memory, between knowing about something and knowing how to do something. You can read about running forever without becoming a runner. The only way to become a runner is to run. The doing changes you in ways the thinking about doing cannot. ↩︎